Hi everyone. I am glad I have found this site. I lost my husband and best friend in an accidents just 2 weeks ago.
I was basically unconscious the first week and now I am partially functioning at least. It has finally cleared out here, there were a lot of people and a ton of amazing support (although a bit overwhelming). I can't figure out if I want to be alone or be around people.
I feel like I am still waiting on my husband to come home sometimes. I have been somewhat active and been out of the house a few times.
The loss of my husband and our future is confusing and sometimes just completely unbelievable. I feel like there is no way that my brain will be ever able to comprehend it. Even as I type or say it out loud, it seems like I am talking about someone else.
Anyway, just wanted to introduce myself. I am looking forward to talking with the few that may understand what I am going through. I am just 26, we had just started talking about when we would start a family, we were about to close on a new house, and I had just landed a great job. Thoughts of the future is something that is often taking over my thoughts when I am on an "upswing". It is so strange to have lost our life in a moment, the best way I have been able to explain it is that it is confusing and like my brain has cut me off from comprehending reality.

Okay enough rambling, thanks for reading.

So sorry you are one of us.  Please continue to ramble, it was helpful for me.  Please know you are in my prayers!

CJ,

I am so sorry for your loss.  I lost my Brian 6 months ago, and I think it is finally sinking in that he is dead.  I have read and heard in my support group that (when you are ready!) you should say "dead" instead of "passed away" because it will help you get past the denial stage.  I still can't do that all the time.

I think the fact that everything was looking up for you will make it easier in some ways (you won't have guilt over regrets), but harder in others because of what you lost.

Best wishes,
Wendy